The Voices Inside My Head


A thousand pounds lighter

Thats how I feel today. I finally was able to tell my boss's that while i was thankful for the offer, I will not be making the journey to Dallas.

This is both exciting and scary. I've worked for the same place for 10 years, 10 long long years. I would love to try something different but since most people want some experience, and the jobs i would like to try, pay squat for starting postitions. I mean, come on even if the experience doesn't match, it should count for something, right?

So if you know anyone In the Southern Ca area looking to hire, let me know.


a little bit lighter

Yesterday someone finally cracked at work and point blank asked "are you going to dallas?".
My Answer: Well considering I just moved here, to be near my family, I'm not currently happy with what i do, don't want to be stuck with it for another year, and am happy where I am, we are leaning towards no."
Person:"but what if there were changes"
me: "oh like a differnet department, doing something opposite of what I do?"
Person "uh no, but less of this, and more of that"
Me: yeah, no...

So they still want me to wait till some unknown big announcement takes place. After seeing this

I like SD much better.



I have a bad case of the Monday's. I covered a shift for someone on Friday so I didn't get my normal, 3 day weekend. Which after 4 consecutive busier then all get out weekends, I needed it.

In Happy news, we got an ottoman for the office. Some friends of ours got new furniture, and asked if we wanted their oversized chair with ottoman... Hell ya, even if its purple, thats what slip covers are for. I've already started designing the room around it. Need to get a move on it with fixing up the house.

Dad gave me some tomato plants he started, like 11. I can't wait for them to be ready.

OH and about Dallas

Its really not for us. We were bored the Second day. Downtown was alright, as was teh Galleria mall, but when you get to fly back into Downtown San Diego, its hard to say... I can give it up, cause really I can't.


Be a while

My grandfather passed on last week, so i have been with my family getting all the things necessary ready. who knew it was soo $$$$ to die, and there were endless things to do.

For a little fun till i have more


a giant funk..

Works got me in a funk, not a little one, or a big one, this ones GIANT. With all the stress i am already under, we have to decide if we want to move to another state,away from our families so i can stay with my current employer, or do i endure the big layoff and find another job?

We leave tomorrow night for our "discovery" trip out there. Some of our friends have already decided to go. My boss even found potential offers for C if we go. Now C worked for this company till a year ago, but he's not all set on heading out to the midwest, or going back to the company. I'm sure there would be other jobs but to start again.

Last week as i confirmed my travel reservations i realized i might not like my job well enough to last another year. and a year it would have to be. those are the rules, or you pay them back for relocating..nice. my job isn't a hard one, but at times can be frustrating.. now i know all jobs are like this but i would hope your boss would actually talk to you. Currently I work remotely, about 3 hours from the office. They have meetings that i find out about weeks later, new policy's second hand, new procedures when someone starts in on why i did something the old way. This is why I don't think i can do it any longer. The sad thing is most of this happened when i worked in the office, except i actually went to meetings, or they made me cover the lines while everyone else did.

So the question is...
Do i like it enough to move out or So Cal? Will anyone ever call me about my resume? Will i get paid enough to stay?

and people wonder why i'm in a funk